i in relationship liao but its seen like nth at all i cannot stop crying i dunno

miie and my bf just started our relationship yesterday i dunno and we really chat untill really happy but u know wat he was like dun wish to disclose to ppl our relationship thing cos he say his friend all i know in hand liao.
he have a swear with a guy call ben (whixh is my kor kor) that he will not have gf cos relationship is bull shit , after that my kor say if 1 day u have u must kill urself . i was thinking wat the fuck .... i just wan cry out but i control it . i dun wan let him see i cry . my heart was liike pain i dunno why will pain non stop . god pls help miie i dunno wat to do now, do wat also wrong.
i think of break and let it go but my tesr drop down i really dunno wat to do. now waiting for him to come back to my place haiz